A Blessing and a Curse

It’s become very clear to me over the last year and a half that being an indie author is both a blessing and a curse.  The beauty of it is we’re just normal people living our regular lives each day while fulfilling our dreams of writing even if that time is limited to the late night or pre-dawn hours and the few spare moments we can get.  The curse of being an indie author is that daily life inevitably gets in the way, not just because it makes precious writing time more difficult to come by, but also because life can be draining, and an exhausted indie author brain is not usually conducive to writing.

Last year was hard.  I learned that having two kids really is a lot more work than just one, especially when one isn’t just a normal kid (that’s a story for another blog post).  My day job that has always kept me busy reached new levels of misery and chaos.  It was a mentally and emotionally exhausting year, and I can’t even begin to tell you how disappointed I was in not having the energy to get back behind the keyboard and write.

I’ve vowed to make this year different, though.  Things at work are just as chaotic as before, but life at home has become a little easier now that my second son is almost a year and a half old and sleeping for longer periods at night (most of the time).  I’m still fighting the exhaustion, but I have the drive to write inspiring me to get through each day.

I also have coffee.  Lots of it.

There’s a point in the writing process when an author gets completely enveloped by their story.  Every idle moment of the day is spent thinking about what’s going to happen next, how to get out of a problem we’ve inadvertently written in the storyline, crafting conversation for the next turn of events.  I’m incredibly excited to say I’m there.  Actually, I’ve been there for months now.

And it’s exactly where I belong.

I’ve had this story in my head since the late summer of 2014 when I was still writing and finalizing Beyond Resistance, the third and final book in The Ransom Series.  I tried to start writing this story for the National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo) that November, a couple weeks after Beyond Resistance went live and my second son was born, but I was too busy with a newborn and exhausted from each day.  I tried again to start writing it for NaNoWriMo a year later in November 2015, but I faced the same challenges in not having the time or mental energy to do it.

Hello 2016.

I’m already 40,000 words into writing this story, and I can’t wait to keep going.  My commute to and from work has become my time for plotting out the next scene as I listen to the music that also inspires me.  This story is constantly on my brain, and in the coming months it will finally be down on virtual paper for the world to read.

It won’t be for everyone.  Those who have read The Ransom Series know I’m not afraid to delve into the darkness, and I’m jumping into it completely with this story.  Head first.  No looking back.

As much as I want to tell you the title and the genre and give you the initial blurb for the story, I’m going to torture you a little bit like authors sometimes do in telling you I’m working on a project without actually telling you about the project.  It will make it all that much better when I finally spill the details which, who knows, may be sooner than you think.

In the meantime, though, I hope to make it up to you by being more active on social media and giving you more frequent updates.  I’ll never be overly open and chatty as I tend to be a quiet person, more than happy to sit back in the shadows and observe, but I can certainly do better.  It’s time for me to actively engage in the indie author and reader communities again.

This year will be better than the last.  That flood of exhilaration at hitting the “Publish” button will flow through me again, and I’ll finally get another story out into the world for you to read.

There are a few more bumps to overcome on my way to the smoother path ahead, but I’m keeping my eyes trained forward.  I’ll get there eventually, and I can’t wait to see what happens when I’m finally there.


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